Buglefingers

I mostly just avoid mirrors and pictures as a whole and dress really tame so its not super bad. I could definitely use therapy for a multitude of reasons but I struggle to communicate things without prompt and am quite uncomfortable with the idea of sharing very personal stuff with, well, anyone. I do go through phases of erasing myself (as much as one can) from the internet, and from my own devices though.

I am glad to hear I’m not the only one, though it’s unfortunate others do suffer the same way. I do hope you continue to make progress and have it become a non-issue for you in the future

I have never heard of that, I’ll definitely look into it! I was given an ND prognosis many years ago though I did not stay with the practioner long enough after to get a full diagnosis. So it’s possible that plays into it.

I’ve gotten more accustomed as I age, definitely, comfortable maybe not so much. I am unsure if changing my appearance to closer match would change my affinity towards it, but I suppose that may be answered by looking more into the condition itself. But thank you for a name to start with

I may have to look into that to some. I’ve never been good around people, but specifically when they say something it’s much worse.

Sort of in a similar vein, I don’t like mirrors because it makes me see myself which presents an image that does not match the way I feel I present myself or my internal image of myself. it’s less a matter of attraction or confidence so much as a disillusionment.

That’s exactly how I am, I found out most of it came from my no-clear-dominance eyes. Quick reaction type stuff I usually use my right side, slow steady stuff I use my left side. Archery, shooting, writing, all left handed. Throwing, punching, Frisbee, right handed.

I agree with the unknown comfort with sides when trying something new. Occasionally I’ll even end up questioning if the other side is better when I do a very infrequent task. It’s like I forgot what hand I normally use

I dislike being observed. If someone comments on me in any capacity (clothes, looks, humor, etc.) Whether positive or negative I get uncomfortable.

That being said, currently a bright orange top.

Otherwise I’m a very average looking person who wears mostly black, dark blues, and some greys.

I believe I’m reasonable (most people would believe this of themselves though). I try to be a respectful person. IDK about “nice” though. I would classify one of my friends as a genuinely wholesome and nice person, whom I envy and look up too. The deficiency between him and myself is why I probably wouldn’t consider myself nice. I hold myself to the standard that I see from him and I’m not there.

I don’t typically ever have to Buy maps. But whenever I’m touring a new place paper maps are awesome. Especially for cities. I learned basically all of Paris and Barcelona that way. Granted I also had to walk everywhere.

The first time I ever set foot in a machine shop I was enamored by the machines. I also don’t have to worry so much about customers or socializing. It’s quiet socially, not so much decibel-y. Things are pretty straightforward and each machine sorta has it’s own personality. You can totally tell when its being just a dick that day, but treat it right and your job is easy.

In terms of Nightmares that induce fear: Usually something that is there that poses extreme threat that I’m unable to make out. Often I’m able to make out that it’s a beast of some kind

I have 2 desktops and 1 laptop, all of which see use for various jobs and uses. My mobile currently only has this app really for anything extra. I use an old phone for all the junk apps I need/want.

I think it’s good for early warning to reach the public. Ideally this would allow the public to support handling it post-haste. Realistically it probably will churn in the news, get a little worse, then depending on how/if it mutates, die off or go full blown and people will likely react similar to COVID. Maybe (and hopefully) a little more responsibly if the lethality stays high.

Prime, Alpha, Leader, Lead, Breeder, Spawner, Source, Central, Keystone.

Those prefixes used upon the suffix of: Bee. All seem like potential options

I always preface with the fact I’m bad at names. I forget names of coworkers I’ve spent years with. Even friend’s names sometimes. In fact, I does not even have to be a person or animal’s name, jus the name of something. Places, objects, locations, etc. I frequent a park that has sentimental value and I couldn’t tell you the name off the top of my head.

A friend of mine has a joke that I always get the letter wrong. Usually I’ll say “I think it starts with [letter]” and most times it’s incorrect.

Usually there are ways around it since I’ve been told it’s rude, but nobody has ever outwardly told me they were unhappy I’ve forgotten. Typically they will notice I forget other names before it becomes a problem with them.

Diagnosis: early/mid 20s (family upbringing prevented earlier testing) years treated ~4

Edit: diagnosis (when originally diagnosed) was ADHD, prognosis Autism, general anxiety disorder, depression.

Medications: adderall quick release- ineffective, delayed release - ineffective, Methylphenidate -effective/but short lived, Vyvanse - effective and current used solution (barring shortage)

Eased ailments: Focus and executive function improvements. Jitters and constant motion reduced. Internal thought processes now under control. Need for constant interaction as a form of stimulation (chatter box) reduced. Job performance and quality improved. General memory improved.

Gained ailments: Hunger repressed. Slight weight management issues. Thirst increased. Caffeine now causes jitters, increased heart rate and anxiety. Medication fatigue (energy crashes, ups and downs if I forget to take medication). Sleep issues (insomnia) if medication taken too late in day.

Yeah, I didn’t recognize what anxiety was until a medication gave me a panic attack. I’ve been able to recognize it since. Due to my upbringing I’m probably further behind than most in that respect so I’ve taken it upon myself to try and catch up.

I’m not super invested in deciphering an expression but yeah, if someone had that expression I’d probably be willing to approach them

I thought it looked happy and amused. Maybe this is why I have trouble with socializing lmao

The man chose death. Do not look twice

Ahhh well, thank you for the clarification. It’s good to understand it so I can recognize it myself. I’m notoriously bad at self analysis with those types of things.

You know, I’ve always heard people talk about burnout, but what exactly is it/feel like?

Same thing for brain fog.

I struggle immensely to stay awake when I get home and usually pass out for a couple hours. Which sucks cause then there’s not a lot I can do with the day