Ditto. This is a shit show performed in a garbage fire inside of an exploding rocket, with every actor dumber than the one before, vying for the acceptance of their would be king/zaddy who is actually a puppet with so many fists up his ass he’s lost count (not a difficult task as he only has 20 digits), and we, the audience, can do nothing to stop it, with half cheering for our demise.
Having shitty parents helps interpret this. They never apologized, they just waited till they thought enough time had passed that I should have gotten over whatever they had done. With this dynamic, you, the victim, are basically trained to allow them to walk all over you and be happy for it. They can do nothing wrong, you’ve done everything wrong. A round about way of being gaslighted.