celeste

The one I still feel guilt over was a time when i found out someone had left an animal trap loaded when they left for vacation. There was a live raccoon in it. I know I shouldn’t’ve carelessly opened it, but I should’ve done something. Even killing it would’ve been kinder. I carry that one with me, to remind me to act when I can. I’m still bad at it, but I try.

The other day I told a customer I could smell gas in her apartment, and even though I feel like a dumbass because it wasn’t a leak (probably lingering smell from them moving an appliance and hitting it on and off by accident), I don’t regret mentioning it. Sometimes I just am going to be an obnoxious jackass about that stuff.

I guess “hopeful” means something different to me? I’ve read stories that made me think it would be better if there was no tomorrow, if it was going to be like that. I suppose the “hope” there is in the personal determination to act in the present to prevent that future.

i recently also adopted a bonded pair and it’s such a good idea. the scaredy cat of the two settled in really fast since he’d be hiding and then see his niece walking around getting pet and purring (not being attacked by the terrible humans who stuck him in a box just the other day) and he’d poke his head out.

plus, you’re always getting to walk into a room a find them cuddling adorably. it’s great!

He might need some time to adjust to the change in routine? It’s tough to say. I had one cat about your cat’s age who was very social and routine oriented. After his wild adjustment period, he settled in, and he would sleep all night. I hope consistency is all you need, too, but my cat might’ve been a weirdo.

Another cat figured out nighttime was when humans sleep only after closing her into the other half of the house when she wouldn’t let us rest.

That was the only method that really worked for my first cat - an enormous stray. So now I do it by default. It seems mean, but it doesn’t hurt them and any method that takes less time I think is less traumatizing. I hope?

I had the idea that electricity had been tried for paralysis, and I looked it up and ben franklin did experiments to try and cure it with shocks.

https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/16717219/

I wonder if the difference was targeting? The type of paralysis? The podcast Sawbones did an episode on the history of electricity in medicine that was pretty interesting. I might relisten.

I was in college around the same time and recall doing my usual minimum research for a new system and still to this day think “acer’s crap, right?” when someone mentions it, even though the memory of why is gone.