Can’t catch a break

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Cake day: October 12th, 2023

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  • I didn’t realize I was ND for the longest time, until my doctor brought it up.

    I dated quite a few ND folks of different flavors. Some of them I thought were NT but later got a diagnosis.

    I am friends with NT people, but I just tend to gravitate towards ND romantically. I don’t even think I consciously do it. It’s a lot easier to be myself around folks that just “get it” I suppose.

    My current partner (ND) and I can play off of each other’s strengths. Our shortcomings are not symmetrical at all so we can manage quite well. An example is that I am very organized. I can make sure nothing falls through the cracks. My partner is quite disorganized, but is really good at focusing on tiny minute details of her current task and pulling together something amazing.

    I do like hearing from my NT friends and we do sometimes discuss things like current events and things that have happened around us. We like discussing the things that we got and the things we missed. But romantically? I’m not sure if that is for me. Special interests? Missed cues? Weird things I’m particular about? My NT friends can handle that in small doses from me, but I’m not sure they could handle it full time.




  • Yeah I got potential. I put in a lot of effort to reach that potential.

    Did the effort pay off? No.

    Did it look like I didn’t do anything? Yes.

    When I asked for help I was told “just do it.” So I kept trying really hard but still the results were far less than the effort put in. For some reason I burnt the hell out overextending myself to get stuff done.

    I feel like the task is moving water from a pond to a large basin. Everyone else got buckets and I got a ladle.


  • Definitely! I know I screw up sometimes and I apologize because it is my bad for doing that, not their bad for having some trouble with it. We typically give each other grace. I know other interrupters that are not like the person in my previous comment, it wasn’t my intention to paint them all like that.

    This person treats it like your problem though. I used them as an example because I felt like it highlighted the fact that autistic people (or ADHD, or anyone with a disability really) can still be a jerk or a bad friend, even factoring in a reasonable amount of understanding for things they can’t control.



  • I get along with other autistic people about the same way I see non autistic get along with other non autistic people.

    I find that I am able to connect with most of autistic people just fine. Communication is fairly natural. I don’t have to dedicate a whole lot of energy when hanging out with these folks. If I’m not close friends with them, I can still spend some time with them and enjoy it in most cases. Every autistic person is different of course. Some are assholes. Some are nice.

    I have a few in mind that just absolutely grate on me, though. One in particular will interrupt you while you are talking. They say they can’t help it, but it does make me lose my train of thought and then I forget what is going on. And if you have a hard time keeping up with them (due to sensory overload), they will say you’re not worth talking to and exclude you from the group. I find this person very difficult to get along with and very strongly dislike it when they show up to gatherings I’m at. I don’t meet many autistic people I dislike a lot, though.

    To contrast with non autistic people, I find it very difficult to communicate with them. I struggle with remembering context and subtext and have to take a lot of energy to constantly include this in my listening. I feel like an alien trying to communicate with the humans. A fair amount of people don’t have the patience to talk to me or know me as more as an acquaintance, but there are a handful that don’t mind my shortcomings. My friends that are not autistic, I like but it is far more exhausting to talk to them.