Most memories are from my early 2000s childhood:

• playing Ultima Online (MMO)
• playing Gunbound (artillery game)
• playing games and hoarding items on Neopets
• browsing nonsense on sites like Ebaumsworld & Newgrounds
• “dj-ing” on coke music (online lounge) to make dBs to spend on furniture for upgrading my clubhouse
• chatting with schoolmates on MSN messenger
• learning html to make my page on Nexopia (similar to Myspace)
• making little fashion avatars on Dollz Mania (and putting them on my Nexopia)
• downloading all sorts of viruses through music on Limewire

I don’t think I have borderline personality disorder but this relationship spiraling is definitely a similar pattern. Might be a similar belief of feeling defective in some way and self sabotaging relationships to maintain that believe.

Oh damn, same. What should I search to read more about this? Mentioned to my therapist that this is a pattern of mine but it was tangential to some other stuff so we didn’t end up processing it specifically. Is BPD referring to bipolar or borderline personality disorder?

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What specs should I be looking for to vet the quality?