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  • pixeltree@lemmy.blahaj.zonetoMemes@sopuli.xyzeuphoric recall
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    20 days ago

    Make 2014 the guy that 2024 remembers, thinking about the depressed 2024 guy thinking about the happy 2014 guy, and that’s me. I knew I was in probably the best part of my life while it was happening and enjoyed it while I could. Not that I didn’t have suicidal thoughts then too but it was definitely the most fun. More 2015-16 though.




  • Ok…

    I can’t deal with the guilt of burdening someone who cares about me with knowledge of how much I want to not exist. I know exactly how that burden of anxiety and worry feels and I can’t stand saddling someone I know and care about with it. It doesn’t matter whether they want me to or not, I just can’t deal with it. They’ll all want to help and they can’t and they’ll feel terrible they can’t help and I can’t put them in that place.

    If I tell someone about suicidal ideation, confide in them, then if I ever do end up killikg myself it would wreck them that they couldn’t or didn’t do anything to help. Or at least, I would in their position. Fuck.


  • There is nothing better on this earth than a cat that enjoys tummy rubbins. My roomates cat loved them, and I would take like an hour long break from working on my senior project to destress and rub her tummy and scritch her chin. Her purrs weren’t usually audible, but you’d feel her romble and she’d be kneading away. She’s still alive and well, just me and her person graduated and went our seperate ways. I miss her a lot tbh. I’ll never forget hearing a funny noise, turning around, and seeing her lapping ranch dressing out of a container my roomate left out. She loves anything salty or greasy, but wouldn’t try to eat your food, just maybe lick it if you left it unattended. She did love to sniff my dinner though.