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I’m German myself but since I am a programmer I like the US-Keyboard more than the German one. The easy fix for me was using US-intl-nodeadkeys so I can use the right alt key to type those stupid German umlauts. This should work at least for most (Western-)European languages.

This is definitely true for me. That’s one of the reasons I love anime and manga because in most of those the innermost thoughts of the characters are shown to the audience.

It’s not really a single tool but using Arch Linux helps me greatly since it gives me full control over my computing environment and it’s look and feel.

Oh no, you fell into your own trap!

Nope, the burden of evidence is on the one claiming something contradicting current scientific understanding.

In this post I have been using that term “non-speaking episodes” because it factually describes what is happening. Some people suggest “autistic shutdown” which is common in the community.

I am not arguing we should use non verbal but autistic shutdown is way to general because for me being (temporarily) unable to speak is only one of the first syptoms. It feels like a litteral “loss of words” since in those situations I’m unable to translate my thoughts into words.

Funny how culture shapes perception. As a German that sentence didn’t even strike me as overly long.

When I have a mild headache, usually from a stiff neck, it impacts me like any other mild pain. It is just a source of stress, like children screaming near by or a Light flickering. It lowers my concentration and my mental capacity but unless there are other factors I can still somewhat function at least for a time.

Migraine is something different all together for me typically it starts with flickering in the center of my vision. Usually I recognize it because it gets hard to read text. The flickering then spreads out and slowly moves to my peripheral vision over about 10 to 30 minutes. When it moves out of my field of vision it takes another 10 to 30 minutes until my brain feels like a bucket of snails. I can’t concentrate even on interesting things and even simple thoughts take effort. About a third of the time a really bad headache starts at the same time. The headache usually lasts about 1 to 3 hours but feels like 10. The sluggishness and fuzziness of my brain will slowly fade over the next one to three days.

This seems to be called migraine with aura. Luckily it hits me only about 3-5 times a year.

I’m sad to admit it but those are not mutaly exclusive.

I just started therapy. Formally it is not autism specific but I chose a therapist who has experience with other autistic addults. Can’t tell you much yet because it was just two meetings. Mostly she asked a lot of questions. But she seems really nice and competent so I am hopeful.

I recently found out that it’s not common to always buy the same brand of generic food types like apple juice, fish fingers, cereal,…